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"What is the point of our lives? There isn't any. I can't seem to decide how much horror and how much joy lies within that simple truth, but I know it is both of those things at once."
"It is through justification of one's actions that a completely guiltless life is possible."
"Anything that lights your world leaves it dark once it's gone."
"Fame is not so impossible for people with charisma, passion and talent. Being famous just means you have fans, and even one or two is enough to make you someone special. Ask a music fan who the best guitarist of all time is, and while one group insists that it was Jimmi Hendrix, another group swears that it was Eddie Van Halen instead. There will never be a time when everyone on this planet agrees on something like that, but luckily that's not important. All that matters is that both sides remain loyal, which they will assuming you continue to be who you are and do your thing. This is all that you need to be immortalized."
"My sadness is beautiful. It infuses everything I do. It is at the core of my identity and always has been, just as happiness is in some people. I refuse to be told that it's a flaw. I will not mute it with medications for the sake of society. I will hold it close to me and celebrate it rightfully while the rest of the world fails to see it for what it is and it will be their loss."
"It might be depressing, but it's also the truth that no one has the power, the money, or the resources to save everyone on the planet from going hungry, living in poverty or allowed basic human rights. But consider the other side of this: there are people in this world who truly WOULD do all of these things for everyone if only they could. There is hope after all."
"How much of what is there do you allow yourself to see?"
"People accuse me of falling in love easily. It just means that I'm able to see the beauty in most of the people who cross paths with me and I appreciate it for what it is and also for what it isn't. Love is imperfect. Falling for someone's flaws is just as necessary as falling for their strengths. And people like myself, who fall into love easily, are sometimes the loneliest souls around at the end of the day."
"It's hardly ever that I am hurt by something in only one dimension."
"You never know what lurks just beneath the surface of my fragile sanity."
"We judge others instantly by their clothes, their cars, their appearance, their race, their education, their social status. The list is endless. What gets me is that most people decide who another person is before they have even spoken to them. What's even worse is that these same people decide who someone else is, and don't even know who they are themselves."
"You can always tell when someone deserves the praise and recognition they receive, because it humbles them rather than inflating their ego."
"In some ways, forcing me to leave was the best thing that could have happened to me. In other ways, it was a disaster. I'm still glad they did it though, because I think I might have just died if I had stayed at the coast. Although I ended up there a couple years later, when my mother relapsed on a whim, I think I needed that two years away from that horrible little coastal town where time is frozen and ideas creep forward too slow to notice any progress."
"Just remember that those who feel profoundly depressed are those whose happiness is likewise intense. What's so wrong with that?"
"We may seem fine, even when the pain remains right there beneath our surface."
"Yeah, I'm a drug addict. And a prostitute. The whole world knows. Not because I robbed my own family. Not because I ended up behind bars. Not because I've been hassled by the cops when soliciting customers from a local street corner. Not because I'm shooting up in the public bathrooms at your city park. Everyone knows because I told them all. I never tried to hide any of it. I never felt the need to."
"There is nothing worse than having an enemy who is a total loser. It's incredibly frustrating when seeking revenge against one, because you come to the realization that there is really nothing you can do to make the person's life worse than it already is. They have nothing to take, there is no way to screw them over if you have been their victim. It's maddening."
"The world is big in some ways, and so small in others."
"Morality and legality have nothing to do with one another. I'm more than fine with breaking a law if it disagrees with my values and morals."
"I don't think I've ever dared to write down what I see in the ruins of me, or tell in any detail the scars and all their secrets."
"Anything at all is possible. Some things are unlikely. Some things will never happen. But they always could, at any time."
"Drugs don't really fix anything, except for everything."
"No original thought still exists. People are original, each one of them. The same ideas that others had before you are waiting for you to bring them back to life in a new way. The part of who you are that is left behind within these old ideas is what makes them original all over again."
"While it's true that I am guided in life by my feelings and emotions, that certainly does NOT mean that I trust them.Emotions are reactions to things based on all of a person's prior experiences and we forget sometimes just how limited those are."
"You know all that sympathy that you feel for an abused child who suffers without a good mom or dad to love and care for them? Well, they don't stay children forever. No one magically becomes an adult the day they turn eighteen. Some people grow up sooner, many grow up later. Some never really do. But just remember that some people in this world are older versions of those same kids we cry for."
"A lot of people who find out about the things I do immediately figure I'm just a pathetic 'druggie' with nothing to say that is worth hearing. They talk endless bull shit of 'recovery!' They make it sound like some amazing discovery...don't they know I'm far too busy trying to recover me?"
"Never try to do anything that is outside of who you are. A forced smile is a sign of what feels wrong in your heart, so recognize it when it happens. Living a lie will reduce you to one."
"Storytellers don't show, they tell. I'm sticking with that."
"Phones with numerical keypads worked best for dialing phone calls. Incidentally, phone calls tend to be the primary function of a phone. 'Smartphones' completely ignore these basic facts, resulting in some of the least intelligent devices I've seen yet. Oh the irony."
"By judging others, you make yourself easy to judge."
"It's so hard to find the place somewhere in the middle of the best and worst I've felt."
"It's always almost Autumn, down here at Rock Bottom."
"About a month after she found out about that, I got pregnant for the first time. I knew I didn't want to have a baby at all, and wanted to get an abortion. But the day I found out, I wasn't sure what to do first. I felt alone and lost and needed someone to call who I could tell. I needed help. I wasn't sure if she would talk to me again so soon after what had happened. I decided to take a chance and try calling her. When I told her, she said, 'Well, an abortion is only like $500, so go turn a couple of tricks and get it taken care of,' before she hung up on me. I probably should have called someone else, but I didn't know who else to call."
"You have to believe what you're saying if you're going to convince me. I just can't break that rule, even if I want to."
"Don't be scared of scars. They just tell stories that are hard to hear."
"No one is fighting for my freedom unless they are doing it on my soil."
"No one truly knows what they will do in a certain situation until they are actually in it. It's very easy to judge someone else's actions by what you assume your own would be, if you were in their shoes. But we only know what we THINK we would do, not what we WOULD do."
"If you love yourself the most at your happiest moments, there is no reason not to be fond of who you are in the dark."
"It's okay to disagree with the thoughts or opinions expressed by other people. That doesn't give you the right to deny any sense they might make. Nor does it give you a right to accuse someone of poorly expressing their beliefs just because you don't like what they are saying. Learn to recognize good writing when you read it, even if it means overcoming your pride and opening your mind beyond what is comfortable."
"Drugs suck more than anything else I have ever liked so much."